Showing posts with label race. Show all posts
Showing posts with label race. Show all posts

Monday, December 6, 2010

Other.

“What are you?” is a question that has seemed to reverberate in my ears throughout most of my life.  Since my mother is German and my father is from the deep south of Alabama; my appearance cannot be linked with any particular race.  The yellow-brown hue of my skin and my thick curly hair puzzles most, and for awhile puzzled even me.
            Most of my life I struggled to fit into a world where I now realize I was born to stand out.  I made silly choices concerning friends, thinking the race of them would ultimately define my identity as well.  One of the reason's I have identified so strongly  with Drake is that he too is bi-racial. Like me his mother is white and his father is black. In interviews Drake talks about how hard it was for him to be taken seriously in the rap world because he was half white. Growing up bi-racial I think is especially hard for any child because at some point you must make the decision- do I hang out with the black kids or the white kids. It'd be nice if such a decision didn't have to be made but unfortunately that's not the case. Think about it when you look around at USC don't you usually see cliches of friends separated by race?

What do you think, am I more black or more white???



      I used to sit at home and wish I was either just white or just black because it would make life so much easier.  Kids at school would poke fun at me calling me “other,” since in their opinion I either didn’t act black enough or white enough.   At the time these comments struck me very hard, but it is my mother who I thank for making me a stronger and wiser person.  She taught me that those who can’t see past physical appearances aren’t even worth my time.  I learned that it is your actions and aspirations that ultimately define who you are and what you’ll become.   I now feel lucky to live a life that cannot be tagged with a specific label.  Though ironically I'm about to add some labels to this post...

Southerm Girl??


What does it mean to be Southern?  Do you have to be born in the South? Or just raised there?  I was not born here but I was definitely raised in South Carolina.  However,  I do not consider myself a "Southern Girl" and nor do I ever want to be seen as such.  The typical southern belle is a conservative pearl wearing girl whose whose lifetime aspiration is to get married and have babies. It saddens me to see that though it is the year 2010 many girls still do not wish to have a career or life of their own.

I don't know if I agree...
 
I'd also like to talk about the south in general.  People always say the southerners are the friendliest people in the world and it is usually referred to as Southern Hospitality.  However I sometimes wonder if this so called Southern Hospitality can better be called Southern Fakery.   People in the south tend to smile in your face and appear to be the kindest most gentlest human beings alive but as soon as you turn your back the nasty comments come flying.
I do say ya'll alot and love sweet tea, so does that make me southern? I hope not!

"The simplistic beauty that all of those southerners have" -Drake

Sunday, December 5, 2010

BARBIE


     Whenever I see the image of a barbie or even just hear the word I think of many things some of them pleasant, others not so much. The unpleasant things that come to mind include my own peers here at USC who seem to be striving to attain Barbie status. Barbies though dressed in different outfits look pretty the same, which is how I see the majority of girls at USC. It doesn't make sense that so many girls here try so hard just look like the person standing next to them.  Well I guess I do understand it because as a bi-racial girl I tried for many years to look like everyone else but currently I'm"transitioning from fitting in to standing out" -Drake 
     Barbie also obviously reminds me of my childhood and I still have vivid memories of cutting her hair and dressing her up up in wacky outfits. Though I had fun playing with her, Barbie contributed greatly to the identity crisis I experienced growing up. Because the blond haired blue eyed doll that served as the definition as beauty contrasted sharply with my thick curly brown hair and brown skin., I felt self conscious about my looks up until I entered High School.
     Oddly enough Barbie also reminds me of Drake.  Drake's label Young Money includes a female rapper named Nicki Minaj who is featured on many of Drake's songs.  She calls herself Barbie and has undergone many plastic surgeries in hopes of looking more like her.  Drake is always rumored to be dating her because of their close relationship and many of the lyrics in his songs that would easily make think they are more than friends."I love Nicki Minaj I told her I admit it, hope one day we get married to say we f#!*in did it" -Drake